time.

Do you ever have so much to do, a disgusting amount to finish before 3:30, or before tomorrow, or before Friday, but have absolutely no will power to complete any of it, let alone, the will power to do anything?

Yesterday I learned that a very close, very close, family friend died. It's so much harder to deal with this now than it was then, to deal with such matters as an adult. As a kid, when I heard that my grandfather died, I had time to grieve, because I was a kid and nothing was expected of me. At that time, I didn't know what grieving was, or how to grieve, so, really that time was a bit wasted on me. I wish I could go back to that time and give my time to grieve to my mom, because, then, she needed that time most.

Now, I'm more of an adult. It feels like I have so many responsibilities as a student, to my personal work, to all the other work, and in all those responsibilities, I don't have any time to grieve. But really, that's all I want now; the world should stop, just for a bit, so I can grieve without the added remorse of not getting anything done.

Goodbye Cindy. I love you, and really, really miss you, and your woopie pies.